It's really gay when your friend hears something & when you tell your side of the story & youre telling the truth, and your friend doesn't seem to believe you.

PS motherfuckers! the only times i made out with Charlie, no one else was there! So don't go fucking saying that i made out w/. him when you were there. I may be a bitch sometimes but i don't do shady ass shit like that. Lying ass hoe. I wouldnt do that esp cause you liked him too! I'm not that horrible oookaye? I wouldnt fucking me kissing him when youre there. & he came to me hella sad cause your ass screwed him over BUT nooo i didnt do anything then either! So stop lying fucking bitch

ANYWAYS...all that was in the summer. whatebay. fucking lying ass bitches irritate me. chyeahh i'm tryin hella hard to not be hypocritical. &&&&& i hate when people put others down to make themselves feel happy, it really does hurt yanoe? whatebay. i'm making a new xanga like i said i would but i took a hiatus. &&& i think i need to mind my own business when it comes to my girls. i'm just tryna watch out for ya girls yafeel? chyeahh i needa change. do you ever think and realize you hate who you are? yepp, well im gonna do something about that.

Well, today was cool. Fed Johnny & Phuong. lol i'm bringing food for him and chris, damn free loaders! haha jk i don't mind, he IS family afterall yanoe? then for PE i didn't really go to class. mr b let me walk around school. & everywhere i turned, i saw jae. he walked me to class, err kinda. and uhh me and ashley are cool again. i love you ashley ryan! don't trip behb. lyz's mommy drove me home cause my mom was hella late. jinny asked whats in my mouth and i told her it was an eyeball lol. she believed me too! & chyeahh..walked home. stood outside waiting for mommy...waited...waited..for like 20 minutes which during i played soccer. fucked up my shoes!!!! motherfucker! on saturday, i'm goin shopping w/. the fam to buy some stuff from victorias secret & shoes!!! freaking..poor mommy. she wanted the jlo velour thing for like 150 but they ran out. she was sad =( poor baby. anyways, shopping should be fun. im tryna buy these 4's that ivo gots, these jordans, & white slippers! lol im sucha kid. came home. no report card. odd. homework! please...pretty please w/. a cherry on top, no more drama. I just hate when people doubt me when I tell the truth. Been thinking about David all day...

IS IT LOVE?! .. Are your palms sweaty? Is your heart racing and is your voice caught within' your chest? it isnt love. It's like you can't keep your eyes and hands off them. It itsn't love, it's lust. Are you proud and eager to show them off? It isn't love, it's luck. Do you want them because you know they're there? It isn't love, it's Lonliness. Are you there because it's what everyone wants? It isn't love, it's loyalty. Do you stay for their confessions of love because you don't want to hurt them? It isn't love, it's pity. Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? It isn't love, it's infatuation. Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? It isn't love, it's friendship. Do you tell them everyday that they are the one you think of? It isn't love, it's a lie. If that's artificial love, then what is true love? Take a look at this list now and realize the difference between the two. Does your heart ache and break when they're sad? Then it's love. Do their eyes see your true heart and touch your soul so deeply it hurts? Then guess what it's true love. Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are? Then it's love. Would you give them your heart and your life? Then fuhkers it's love ..

*/ Lemme update. can't you tell this is gonna be a long ass blog? yepp. im grounded, but my sisters being cool about be going on today and calling david today cause we got into a fight thingy.

Monday- Cut to frisco with Tonianne & Linda. wasted money but had fun. ate sandwhiches and walked home with toni. =) Tuesday- Dooms day. Got in trouble. School sucked. talked to kaye about my problems. thanks dear. normal day? Wedesday- school was boring. chilled w/. linda tonianne lyz nicolen and sister afterschool. health center. bus to broncos. bus ride was hella funny. jerome took his phone. stingy ass fucker. toni lost her pink filter =( sorry babe. then ate at broncos, met up w/. javie then we met up w/. melvin and joseph. went to old alva park, chilled till 6. daddy drove me home. had no keys so i climbed the fence =/ im getting better. Thursday -no school..talked to david for a while & toni melvin and joseph came over. the boys were lit like usual. & josephs hair was hella funny. toni did it! haha then they were looking thro victorias secret..and were like 'lets go before they get hard' and we ate and watched tv. toni stayed, boys left. toni left. sleep. Friday- woke up at 6. couldnt sleep. too nervous. met up w/. jen later. tina drove to movies. bus to logan. logan to bart. bart to s. hayward bart. then met up w/. linda. clothing change. then hayward bart to balboa park bart stop. hopped over and later got caught. chilled. met up w/. david. chilled some more. met up w/. his boys. he left. came back park. cheeeeeeeeeeeeell  bart. home. got off at mall. switch. talked to david. got into fight. uc bart to logan. there was a game. tina picked us up. got in trouble. then slept w/. jenny. her ribs are weird lol. went home. slept. sister woke me up. slept. woke up. cleaned. online. talked to david. jen and david hate each other. i needa fix that. miss david. love jen. took a shower. eat. talk to friends. read some shit. found picture thomas drew me lol. and javie's over =/ roar! sob. anyways...listening to music. missing jen. wanting to be w/. david. iono what happened last night. things are all fucked up for now..all i need to do is talk to him and get shit straight. i love you, no matter what. how do you feel?

stole the survey from jae. go to www.xanga.com/dipl0mat lol read the last entry then the second to latest. me then..dannalyn? sorry i dont know her name. wow me and him were in love...anyways..

[x] they call me: traaaaaaaanny
[x] also: tran tranny ny nyny?
[x] sex: female
[x] my first breath of air: december one two
[x] age: 14
[x] status: TAKEN BY TRAN.82204 < jae haha single bitch
[x] occupation: student
[x] nationality: vietnamese&chink
[x] best homeboy[s]: whatta bout girls? Hmm it used to be Thomas. I don't really chill w/. guys anymore. OMG!?!? haha David

____REWIND____
[x] most memorable memory: lots
[x] worst?: hospital visitin my cous'
[x] first word uttered: your moms hot
[x] first bestfriend ever!?: emmie!

____FAST FORWARD____
[x] college planning to go: frisco state
[x] future resident of: 415
[x] wedding: w/. my loverrrr
[x] children: boy then girl
[x] looking forward to thanksgiving: haha yeahh
[x] NOT looking forward to: fighting with david

____PLAY____
[x] feeling: sad/confused/pissy/mixed emotions
[x] Listening: uRsher
[x] Talking: no one. i don't like them lol
[x] doing: thinking
[x] craving: water..my throats been hurting since yesterday
[x] thinking of: thinkin' of david!
[x] hating: bein sick

____LOVE?____
[x] love is: pain. NARS : if love is pain then gimme sex
[x] first love: music
[x] current love: davidwong
[x] love or lust?: lusting over the one you love
[x] best love song: brown eyes, & the songs david sings to me
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: anythings possible but its bad lol
[x] when love hurts, you: eat ice cream w/. nicolen, cry, then sleep then party with the girls
[x] true or false - all you need is love: false
[x] have you ever been in love?: chyeahh
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: chyeahh.. you seen chingy?

____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons: clothes, personality, looks? not so much really, how they act around their friends, if your number one to them..or even in the top 3 lol
[x] turn offs: guys who think they the shit, conceited people, people who scare me, & guys who dont make an effort
[x] does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: no..my mom only knows that i liked anthony and she liked patrick
[x] what kinda hair style?: bald...
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: hickeys! lol juuuuus kidding hug you tightly and say i love you
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: parties, school, girls
[x] are you the type of person to holler n ask for numbers?: haha it depends?

____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: dog
[x] short or long hair: for guys, none
[x] innie or outie: innie?
[x] sunshine or rain: rain + sun = rainbows
[x] moon or sun: moon
[x] basketball or football: football
[x] righty or lefty: lefty
[x] hugs or kisses: hug then kiss
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: one seester
[x] bf/gf or best friend: seester, best friend, bf
[x] tv or radio : tv?
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: starbucks fshoooo
[x] mc donalds or burger king: my mommys cooking
[x] summer or winter: winter
[x] written letters or e-mails: written letters, more romantic
[x] playstation or nintendo: playstation
[x] disney or nickelodeon: nickelodeon
[x] car or motorcycle: car
[x] house party or club: club..i hate cleaning

[x] sing or dance: dance
[x] freak or slow dance: slooow dance & freak lol
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: aim
[x] google or ask jeeves?: none

____MISCELLANEOUS____
[x] can you swim?: haha ask derrick
[x] whats your most embarrassing moment?: gettin nervous around boys
[x] what are you scared of?: my mom lol
[x] what is your greatest accomplishment?: not throwing my sister down the stairs
[x] what kinda roof is over your head?: a normal roof?
[x] do you like tomatoes?: ewww no
[x] how many TVs in the house?: 4
[x] how many phones?: 6
[x] how many residents?: 4
[x] how many DVDs do you have?: ahhaa i dont know
[x] last dentist visit: long ass time ago
[x] last doctor visit: a few months ago
[x] last phone call: jen&david

When i first saw you at AMS/i didn't like you by the way you act and dress/im sorry for stereotyping/but it dont matter nomore cause you got me laughing/from the cute dimples and the smile/the personality that makes every thug go wild/from all the sweetness you have/(a line i cant read lol)/you are someone that i can fall in love with/ill always be here as a person to help you through this friendship/im sure you can take this as a promise/that we will never leave each other cause our bond will be endless/i might just met you but the things youve done to make me happy/your heart is beautiful like a flower starting to bloom/i love the fact that you care for ur friends/you think of them before yourself which makes you special/i smile knowing you'll be here, you seriously make me happy/dunno how but the things you say/the cute laugh you have/chinky eyes that match mine/with you and i, we'll never be alone/you have a lot of friends that care/but no matter what for any reason, ill always be there/your personality and body are unexplainable/i cant believe your still available/well all and all i hope our friendship can grow cause i see you as someone i can hold.

isn't that cute though? chyeahh someone wrote it to me but i can't say any names. just that he lives in the une & goes to logan. & no he doesn't like me. & i love david so s'all good. well jen's sleeping over & i guess ima talk to david later? who knows. we're all gon sleep in my room and talk? tomorrow i think were going to frisco. *friends forever ring. keep it =) lol insidejoke. well jen's impatient. we're gon watch movies or sutten in my room. so late. peace<3ny

(edit) saturday

last night was great cause i talked to david for hella hours. chilled w/. jen & sister. burned dvds. girl time. my whole body is branded with i love david and shit. and my sister wrote 'no tran loves phuong' haha fun shit. ivo's having a bbq so i think im heading over there for a few hours.

i love my david

<3ny

...i wanna find a guy who'll take by breath away...

or have i found him already?

*/Boys, just do it!----Tell her you think shes cool. Tell her why you think shes so cool. Smell her hair. Talk to her in movie theatres. Pick her up and pretend youre going to throw her in the river; shell scream and fight you but secretly, shell love it. Hold her hand and skip. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Pick flowers from other peoples gardens and give them to her. Tell her she looks pretty. Let her pay for stuff if she wants to. Introduce her to your friends as The coolest girl I know. Sit in the park and talk to her. Take her to the library, and playgrounds, and train stations. Tell her dirty jokes. Tell her stupid jokes. Write poems about her. Just walk around with her. Throw pebbles at her window at night. When she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. Take her to shows of bands shes never heard of. Hold her hand in the mosh pit. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Call her. Call her back if she calls you. Sing to her, no matter how bad you are. Carve your names into a tree. Get her mad, then kiss her. Give her piggy-back rides. Go see her band play even if they really suck, and tell her they were great. Give her space if she needs it. Push her on swings. Stay up with her all night when shes sick. Make up pet names for her, but cool ones, not sappy ones. Teach her guitar. Lend her your cds. Write on her. Make her mixtapes. Write her letters. If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour train trip. Take her to cool shops, and let her take you to even cooler ones. Listen to all the bands she mentions. Dont tell her that her favorite bands suck. When shes sad, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything. Buy her ice cream. Let her take all the photos of you she wants. Look into her eyes. Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast. Kiss her in the rain. When you fall in love with her, tell her.

peace<3tran

im being really moody today. & ive been crying a lot. sometimes for no reason. weird. bitched at nicolen, sorry lover. got irritated by omari and jared. junior hugged me to death. oompa was doing *unmentionable things. jenny left me. my mom got mad cause i yelled at her, for good reason too. javie got my sister mad which got me mad cause she yelled at me cause he got her pissed. im hungry, only been eating candy. yesterday was great cause it was david day. =) i miss tonianne cause she hasn't gone to school in forever. i love david. i think me and seester are gon go frisco saturday to chill. iono. i finally finished homework. procrastinating too much. and all is good, if i stop being bitchy. lol i love david! =) peace

<3traaaaaaaanny

 chyeahh i love him & only him.